During both of my pregnancies, my creative well went dry. I felt as if all my creative energy was being used to make these tiny humans and there was none left over for the work I wanted to do. They were the longest nine months. Once I gave birth, of course, the inspiration and energy came surging back. The problem? I had so many! great! ideas!, but with new babies in tow I didn't have the time to act on them.
It was a frustrating and, honestly, a depressing, period for me. I was so used to getting things done right when I wanted to, but now I had to wait for this moment I wasn't even sure would come. In the meantime, I felt like life was passing me by.
But then I read this quote by Gabrielle Blair.
Gabby, who is an inspiring mom of six, wrote about balancing work and life balance on her blog, Design Mom: "Your baby may not always be so snuggly. Your curious preschooler may not always assume you know the answers to every question. Embrace your current life. And when it’s hard to embrace, know the next season is coming faster than you think."
When I read those words, something settled in me. Gabby was totally right. This time in my life was so precious, and it would never come again. My ideas, on the other hand, weren't going anywhere. If anything, they would become richer because of my experiences as a mom.
So here I am, with a 2 1/2 year old and a 7 month old, and it is nuts. But it gets easier. And then it gets harder, and then it gets easier, again. In midst of it all I am slowly finding my way back to myself, I am finding energy, and I am finding time. But on the days and weeks when I can't, I just throw my hands in the air and embrace life.
This week's Good, Glad & Lovely list:
- Saying "yes" to adventure.
- Watching the Oscars. It's my Super Bowl.
- Ideas that are so good you can't stop thinking about them.
- Nervously sharing one of those ideas with a few friends and discovering that they feel exactly the same way.
- My husband who brings me home a pint of my favorite gelato just because (and adding a spoonful to my cup of coffee in the morning just because).
- A perfect soft-boiled egg.
- Introducing my children to the not-quite-related aunties, uncles, and cousins with whom I grew up.
- Weather for cuddling.
- "Lovely Day" by Elizabeth Mitchell, a sweet little song.
- The simple but beautiful work of my new friend, Joke.
What are your good things today?
The Good, The Glad & The Lovely is an experiment in gratitude. I've been keeping lists of good things in one form or another since I was a girl. I hope you'll join me as I count the positive, accept the not-so-great, and try to do a bit of good, too.